Day Two Hundred & Fifty-two: 10/9/2023
I spent hours last night setting my clean hair in rollers. I sectioned and set the hair in significant directions to be unrolled perfectly after being tightly secured. I barely slept at all last night because of the pressure. Not the pressure to be beautiful, but the tension I received from the fixtures in my hair. Well, when it was finally time to unroll the hair I was disappointed with each spiral. I don’t think I set it correctly. After a series of brushing and blowing I realized that the hairstyle wasn’t working. So, I started over. I dunked my head under the faucet to bring forth my natural curl. At least I gave myself plenty of time to complete the day’s look.
I’m surprised that I was able to make it through the shift. I’m so utterly tired. I’m tired because of a failed beauty attempt. I just can’t wait to get home and rinse off the teal to then crawl into my teal bed for a restful night’s sleep. I barely made it through and I’m not super thrilled with my skills today. I’m not sure that I even put in the minimum. Oh well, there’s always tomorrow.
Day Two Hundred & Fifty-three: 10/10/2023
I have little patience this week. Could be the fact that young girls have proven to be distrustful. I tried not to alleviate my annoyances on them directly. However, I yelled at a pair because I found a toilet seat laying on the floor. Then, I realized that there are multiple people in one of the stalls. Nope, nope, nope! Get out and I don’t care what you were doing, there was no need to have two people in the stall. I feel in my heart that I should be a staunch individual, but I can only handle so much.
Apparently, I wasn’t able to handle it all tonight. I broke a sink. I didn’t mean to break the porcelain. I didn’t realize that I was cleaning so aggressively. In a swift moment the sink was intact and the next moment it wasn’t. I’m very embarrassed and feel really bad for not paying attention to my angry cleaning.
I’ve been annoyed with the student body, but I don’t want to make more work for someone else. I’m nervous about how my boss is going to react. I’ll have to follow up with their reaction. Oh well, accidents happen. I just need to remember my strength when I’m feeling super frustrated. Because if I’m not paying attention I can destroy a very sturdy and stable substance.
Day Two Hundred & Fifty-four: 10/11/2023
I had another night of shitty sleep. I was highly concerned that there was going to be an issue with my boss and the broken sink. I was concerned that my boss was going to be mad and disappointed with me. I tossed and turned for hours because I was so overly concerned about the consequences. It’s not like me to lose my mind and break some sort of structure like an animal.
Well, there was no need for that. I’m still remorseful of the events, but at least I didn’t get fired for an act of pure frustration.
It really was a pleasant start of the day. The custodial staff was invited to attend a BBQ lunch hosted by the administration. They missed the facility’s appreciation day. Didn’t know that was a thing, but they still wanted to show appreciation for all of our hard work. Noted!
Since a few of us came in early for lunch, it also meant that we would get to leave early. I was thrilled to leave before 10:30. It was splendid to get home before 10. It was an absolute treat of the day. It also meant that it was Friday for the students and most of the staff. The school is still going to have events the rest of the week, but there won’t be any classes until Tuesday. It is a great reprieve for all. Especially since there won’t be another break until November.
Day Two Hundred & Fifty-five: 10/12/2023
Right now it feels strange coming to work as if everything is fine. While there is horrendous turmoil occurring on the other side of the world. The atrocities are being brandished all over the media. It's so hard to comprehend that things will be fine once the dust starts to settle. It could also lead to increased international tension. The events that are occurring between Israel and Palestine are life changing. It has the potential to alter sentimentality all across the globe. The actions of the few will definitely impact the many.
I’m honestly scared what will transpire in the coming weeks. Each day has brought forth a new form of fear that I’ve never experienced before. I try to pretend to be a literal fairy, but I’m still a person parading through the halls. Life is feeling rather forlorn. Misery has set upon the world and the retaliation will be severe.
It makes me feel redundant. I’m also a bit disappointed that I’m restricted from doing some of my work. The school is hosting state choir auditions. I don’t know much about it, but there are singers all over the school. They’ve occupied classrooms and practice spaces for the next three days. I was honestly looking forward to the deep cleaning with no one in the building. How unfortunate that I have to sit with my feelings. Stewing as if I’m sort of a substance that’s been sitting on the burner for too long. Not burning, but no longer palatable. I’m hoping I’ll be able to segue my thoughts to something more productive, like my writing. There will certainly be downtime tomorrow.
Day Two Hundred & Fifty-six: 10/13/2023
Happy Friday the 13th! I love when this day appears in the month of October. It's such a spooky time. I wish I didn’t have to be here at work, but at least I didn’t have to work hard. The auditions still had an influx of people throughout the halls. I worked on a few things, but mostly I spent the time writing and working on my own personal projects.
Even though I had no interest in being in the building today, at least I had the freedom to do what I wanted. I say this, because I opted not to do the deep cleaning I was told to do. Oh well, that’s the reason I ask not to be in charge. I really shouldn’t because I’ve been a total slacker this week. Hopefully I won’t get reprimanded for my performance this week, if I was the boss of myself I might need to write myself up.
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